Outnumbered & Loving It!

I'm the luckiest Lady

 Because I Am Going to be Cherished 
By Not One
 But 2 Boys!!

On Thursday February 20, 2014 we got to see our baby for the first time! I had been waiting for so long for this moment. We were blessed to have both Jeff's and my mom there to share in this with us! Us four had our eyes locked on the screen as the ultrasound tech moved the transducer around my belly! The little guy was moving all around, stretching his arms and rubbing his face. It was so fun to watch him open his mouth and swallow! Everything was Perfect! His brain, heart, and organs were just at the right development! 

I just sit back in wonder to think there are two brains and hearts in this body of mine! It is a sweet miracle to think that I am being allowed to help in the process of creation! Such a spiritual experience, it is hard to put my feelings into words. All I can think of is gratitude and peace! We are all eternally blessed that such miracles as these reminds us that there is someone with so much more power than us out there!!

Her beautiful words speak what I am trying to say:

"Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy 

and complaining about the shadow over my feet,

 I'd have cherished every minute of it and 

realized that the wonderment growing inside me 

was to be my only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.  

~Erma Bombeck

 Week 18

We told the ultrasound tech not to tell us if we were having a boy or girl. Instead we had her write it down and put it in an envelope. Darbye, our good friend in Coeur d'Alene, offered to make us a cake with either blue or pink inside. I thought it would be such a fun way to have two big exciting moments. One when we got to see our baby and one the next day at the unveiling cake party with all of Jeff's family and my mom around. 

It was a huge surprise at the party for me, but not apparently for my mom, Janet, or Jeff because our little guy had not been shy! It was very obvious with all his wiggling around during the ultrasound that he was in fact a boy. I on the other hand was to distracted by watching his little heart beating and being in awe of his strong little bones to even think to notice.

Calming My Fears

Jeff and I had felt that we were having a boy from day one! But after a couple months of pregnancy the idea of little dresses was so exciting to me. I know girls. I don't know boys. The idea of raising a young strong man that would grow up looking to God and becoming a leader for his family in today's world scared me. Girls are best friends with their moms forever. Girls like to talk and share. Boys seem to be more independent and closed off when it came to sharing their feelings. My fears began to creep in and I didn't know about God trusting me with his son.

The sweetest note I received after finding out our little baby was a boy was from my sister-in-law. Her words were exactly what I needed to hear. 

"I have been thinking about it all night. I am so excited for you! There is no possible way to explain what it is like to have this little man that you adore more than anything look up at you like you are the most beautiful amazing thing he has ever seen. He practically worships you. He looks at you and you know without a doubt what true love is. He will love you more than you thought possible and you will feel the same about him. Honestly, it's something you just don't get with having a girl. I can't wait for your little man to be here so you can experience that!"

Other women began sharing with me similar experiences. I soon allowed the spirit in and the excitement and peace I felt was overwhelming. I can't wait for my boy!!!

The party was a BLAST!!! 

A huge thanks to Janet for dinner, 

and Darbye for the DELICIOUS and ADORABLE 

confetti lemon cake!!!

  

After we found out we would be having a boy Jeff wrote down his feelings. I am so grateful for the companion I have, for his sweet spirit and the journey we have ahead of us. 

Jeff's Journal Entry:

21 February 2014
We found out today that we are having a boy! This is exciting news, but we have both felt that it was a boy from early on. I would have been equally excited about a girl. This pregnancy has been an adventure and I'm sure that the adventures will continue for the rest of my life. That is what gets me: the fact that this is the beginning of my family. Children stick around forever. There is no return policy and the prospect of that is terrifying and intimidating. It is also so exciting though. I was thinking last night about the curly, most likely blond haired, little boy and the cute pictures that we will take with him. I thought of him growing up and all the fun and great things he will do. In my mind I see him as protector of his younger sisters. I am overwhelmed with the prospect of it all.  It is real and I can't wait to see where it takes Amber and me. I see so much happiness and many adventures and I can't wait for them to happen. It has become so real and I can't wait for it to happen.

I can't wait to take a family picture with the blue stripped shirt and orange pants we bought on the little guy  with me in my orange pants and Amber in her blue stripped shirt. It just seems to perfect to me.

 Week 19

I feel him rolling around, 

kicking, and stretching me out every day.

I can't believe how fast he is growing!!